About UnrulyBrown.com

Unruly (adj.) - difficult or impossible to discipline, control or rule; recalcitrant; wayward; headstrong.

This blog offers random excerpts from The Diary of Unruly Brown, a real-life bad girl with a proclivity for violence, bad language, wicked revenges, and unforgiveness fueled by uncontrollable anger and pain, yet driven by the need to protect her loved ones and avoid further pain at whatever the cost.

These chronicles are autobiographical in nature—most are completely true and some are fictionalized versions of actual events. One or two may be purely figments of my imagination. Which is which, I’m not telling. Those of you who were there know, and that’s good enough for me. Unfortunately, my rep is well earned, that is certain.

I started writing this blog as a form of entertainment and therapy of sorts. I was both amused and touched by my readers’ shocked, yet compassionate reactions. Most marked to me was the absence of judgment, contempt or scorn, which I guess is what I expected. Upon the realization that something bigger than myself called for me to put my story in a book format, I commenced work only to put it aside when it got to be too painful to continue.

The problem with suppressing memories and pain is that they always resurface just when you least expect it, usually at the worst possible time. What a slap in the face it is when you think you’re past it but your inability to trust and fear of being hurt cripples you by keeping you from getting what you want more than anything in this world. And after years of existing in the same cycle you run the risk of ending up in a worse place emotionally than that in which you started. At that time I still had a lot of anger pent up inside me despite how much I unleashed on so many hapless souls who crossed my path, but then I reached a place in my life where I could finally walk through my wall of pride and accept the help I apparently needed all along. As I did, I continued recounting scenes from my unruly life, all of which will appear in the book along with why Unruly came to be. Even today I still find it a struggle to keep my anger under control every now and then, and I accept that it’s an ongoing battle—but it’s one I’m determined to win as well.

The Diary of Unruly Brown is a collection based on years of diary entries and memories. Feel free to enjoy these copyrighted snippets at your leisure, and subscribe or watch this site for news of the book’s release and all other related info. In the meantime, this entry would be a good starting point.

~Unruly